1. Restlessness
Days filled with frustration
Restlessness and anger too
How do I go through this long day
Every moment is filled with memories of you
Fate playing with my emotions
Send me messages of hope
Then suddenly comes the dead end again
Emotions crash and sobs choke
How long does this last
I ask this everyday
Is there an end to loneliness and grief
Or is this here forever to stay
Where have I gone and what have I become
Is a question I ask myself everyday
To laugh, sing and play with my family
Became a dream maybe I will fill one day
Crying and wounded I was thrown aside
A body existed and the soul flew away
Silence is not an option became my voice
Please read how I existed day by day
A mother died because she had no choice
An activist, campaigner, many more hats I wore
Ricky Reel: Silence Is Not An Option became my voice
I need to get justice for Ricky so please someone open the door
Blood oozing out of my heart
Eyes raining painful tears which I try to hide
I wrote Ricky Reel – Silence Is Not An Option
To answer endless questions people ask me day and night
Please read my story then you will know
Why I continue with my struggle for justice
Which so far has evaded me
For which I have put my life on hold
Ricky died and I lost my identity
Different labels placed on my head
I wrote Ricky Reel – Silence Is Not An Option
And my friends I ask why is my son dead.
Looking everywhere to see your face
I can’t see you then ask to hear your voice
Come and embrace me please today on Mothers Day
Ricky I can only dream as I have no other choice.
Happy Womens Day
Babies who played in my lap
Grew into young ladies today
Where did the time go I wonder
It felt I only gave birth yesterday
Happy Womens Day to all the ladies
Babies, Young and old
Be strong, compassionate and stay safe
You are loved everyday I hope you are all told.
Remembering you is so easy
Because you never went away
I feel your presence with me all the time
Though many obstacles were placed in my way
Your twinkling eyes encouraged me to carry on
Helped me stand up again
When I am lying on the floor
When my body is full of grief and pain
Every breath I take my son
Gives me hope that I can achieve my goal
Then I may close my eyes forever
Maybe then peace will enter my soul
On 11.7.1977 I brought you to this world
Seeing your smiling face and clutching my hand
You gave me so much love and joy
Why I lost you on 21.10.1997 I fail to understand
Why was your life so brief my darling
I fail to find much needed answers my son
Your mum also died with you my
sweetheart
My heart will always be with you my son
© Sukhdev Reel
Justice For Ricky Reel 